Our wounds are our way home to wholeness.

Our wounds of suffering are actually just knots in the fabric of eternal consciousness or unconditional loving essence. Our wounds are not impenetrable scar tissue even though they feel like that. They are not unbearable, insurmountable hurdles to be avoided or navigated around or wrestled with. They belong to all of us They are our children, they need our love, they need our attention, our care, in order to soften, open and unravel back in to the wholeness of our Being.

The eternal light of consciousness (God) that we are, shines through these subconscious energetic knots, they act like a veil. They are projected on to our canvas of pure light, creating shadows for our conscious awareness, but we desperately avoid them. There is suffering because we 'think' we are behind the veil, that we must avoid, fix, understand, ascend beyond, the illusionary veil. Although the irony is that we are never separate from God. We never have been. We have forgotten our true origins and wander the earth in forgetfulness. We feel this sense of loss yet we can’t remember where it stems from. We seek out 'things', solutions, answers to alleviate the feeling of 'loss' or incompleteness, this illusionary veil of separation from God/ Source — we seek in food, sex, addiction, in 'being' perfect, status, achievements, enlightenment (all the lies we've been told will make us happy), we continuously seek to reconcile. Yet the well of possible salvation from incompleteness or suffering is an endless void. We keep trying to solve a spiritual problem with physical fixes, to catch air with a butterfly net, or to keep water in a bucket with holes! The seeking for completeness is actually an avoidance of our subconscious wounds and pain which just perpetuates the strife, and struggle. The ego kicks in, the pain becomes personalised, owned, condensed, hidden and suppressed and it spreads through our world like a cancer.

Maybe we are here to become consciously aware of the illusionary knots of suffering; the veil of separation, for the good of all of us. The knots can be unravelled through our (the) light for the good of ALL. Until we are conscious and willing to FEEL our truth (feelings, sensations of the body) moment to moment we keep adding to the knot, but when we engage with our seemingly individual knots from a point of pure awareness (consciousness light), compassion and forgiveness, the knot loosens. This is a life long journey; feeling in to, loosening and unravelling our 'personal' suffering (knots) for the evolution of the Whole. I remember the point that I had deep realisation that 'my' personal suffering wasn't just 'mine', I was making my bed one morning after a particularly painful and tumultuous episode and I intuited that whatever I could 'bare' and 'bear' I was baring and bearing for ALL. I realised that 'my' sufferings (my knots) were not in vain. My soul had chosen to evolve and grow through understanding the journey of integration of shadow; the point if you like of my suffering.

There really is only ONE experiencing itself as ALL.

This was a game changer and completely shifted how I experienced mental, emotional and physical pain, which this body/ mind has had in spades :). I no longer wanted to end my life. I felt to end my life would mean the illusion of darkness 'wins'. I realised deeply that it's a game!

At this point I started handing 'my personal life experience', desires and mental, emotional and physical pain back to God; consciously living in surrender to 'what is'. Only in this surrender will there be the peace and inherent contentment that passes all individual understanding. In this conscious surrender it is intuited that only God/ Source exists to 'bear' all pain. No longer anything 'personal' left trying to escape suffering, what a Divine paradox! The resistance and trying to escape pain or what is 'unwanted' or feared IS the suffering. God/ life makes no mistakes, whatever is HERE, whatever arises, be it tumultuous, confused, fearful, desperate thoughts, feelings or sensations, IT yearns our love, it yearns to be made welcome. It yearns to be made whole....Holy...

In full acceptance...IT becomes WHOLE again..IT dissolves....

In this deep surrender the hardened beliefs of separation and limitation begin to soften...

Empaths feel the pain of others. Do not identify with it. It is not ours. Let's hold space for it , FEEL it, like we would if we were the mother of humanity, open hearted, compassionate. We have the capacity to FEEL and BE with every arising.

The nervous system has become so hyper sensitive, so hyper aroused, let's love it, reassure it, calm its hyper activity, with love, self compassion and attention.

A soft, open heart without filters allows us to recognise what others are going through, whether an earthquake half across the world or a tragedy in your own back yard. Just be more mindful about identifying with pain. Don't make it an identity, wearing it like a badge of honour. It serves nobody to dwell in suffering.

You can see or rather feel an image of a bitter person. Suffering has become calcified into the structure of identity. Like a prism, life (the light of consciousness) filters through this bitterness. It is a lens. And all that person sees and feels is more bitterness. Disease then wraps around this structure like a vine, choking out life force.

Things happen. Certainly things have happened to all of us. Don’t use these experiences to create letters that we add to our name like a title or degree. When we do, we are out of alignment with our true identity as pure...pristine clarity....God in carnate.

Be soft and open, breathe deeply in to the belly, remain like water, use the breath, move the body, keep flowing freely, take no shape. Cry buckets of tears, scream like a banshee, laugh and dance with wild abandon! Don’t allow the pain to become hardened and calcified. Keep the heart open. Keep flowing. Keep reminding ourselves and reconnecting to the energy of Source, to push beyond the veil of forgetfulness, to remember. again and again and again that We are eternally all one, even those not still in physical form, and those yet to arrive! We are all but mere drops in an ocean bigger than we can comprehend with our limited mind. Never forget this.

As we welcome home our feelings of weakness, we become aware of our strength. As we welcome home our feelings of confinement, we become aware of our freedom. As we welcome home our feelings of fear, we become aware of our courage. As we welcome home our feelings of stuckness, we become aware of our infinite aliveness.

We cannot be aware of the full spectrum of light if we deny any colour!!

Our beautiful, broken heart is an invitation home into the infinite, all encompassing, unchanging, fullness of Life. From fullness we have full range of the orchestra of lifes emotions available to us....from fullness we get to hear, sense, see and feel the greatest symphony of all...lifes' perfect unfolding story. Here we are malleable enough to flow effortlessly with Gods plan for us...HERE we trust its flow implicitly!.

So let's be here to hear a powerful call to include/integrate/ welcome fully and evolve beyond the stories of pain that have shaped us and our life experience and the corresponding defensive postures which continue to constrain our full potential.

Let the psychological defensive postures become loose and limp now...

Let them melt back in to the abyss...

Trust the innate intelligence of the body to defend perfectly and effortlessly should the need arise....

Breath deeply in to the belly...

Exhale slowly...

Soften the belly...

Let go...

Open fully...

Be Here.....

Our perceived brokenness is actually shaping the incredible gifts we have to share with our world.

There's method in the madness!!....