Using triggers for their intended purpose!

When you are triggered I.e when you experience uncomfortable/ distressing sensations in the body and racing thoughts it is so important that you don’t distract yourself. Triggers are not punishment or an error in your processing of stimuli (which we can be led to believe before we know better). They arise as God/ Lifes' natural guidance to help you integrate suppressed life force energy (your stifled potential or fractured parts of yourself). They feel like the burning fires of hell at times because your ego has been constructed to protect you from them. It does its best to keep you from the emotions, it believes your survival depends on it!!...because maybe it did as a child.

Don't get pulled in to unconscious/ avoidant coping strategies. Unconscious coping strategies can be reaching for alcohol or food, grabbing the phone to scroll or call friend or ANYONE who's available to gossip 'about' or numb or bypass the trigger. Unconscious coping strategies can be buying something, scrubbing the house, keeping busy and focused on projects etc…you know that the coping habits don’t resolve the trigger, they just perpetuate it. You may be momentarily distracted but God/ life will simply have to recreate another scenario to bring conscious awareness to the subconscious trigger points so that you can finally process repressed energies by BEING unconditionally accepting and without distraction with whatever asks to be acknowledged, completely surrendered to and deeply felt and reintegrated in the body.

When you are deeply triggered pull your attention down from the thoughts in the head and higher (spiritual ego) and focus your attention on the most viscerally intense spot in the body. Let the fractured, disjointed and dismembered energies drop back down in to the body.

This is not an easy process, there can be so much fear as the ego desperately tries to protect you from feeling and there's a magnetic force of conditioning that will pull your attention back to 'thought', to goals, back to fixing, analysing, ruminating etc..

Ask the question “Where is the most intense sensation in my body right now?” Flow attention directly in to the spot and completely open up in to the full sensation and any accompanying emotion. Peel off all thought and stories 'about' the trigger. Again, the mind will desperately try to pull your attention back in to the head because the egoic mechanism has been in place to protect you from any uncomfortable emotions and sensations. But the only way to integration (the wholeness and peace of God) is through :). Any physical, emotional or sensory discomfort is a red flag to the nervous system. It cannot distinguish the difference between emotional pain or physical pain so it frantically panics to AVOID and protect you from suppressed emotions.

Persevere and keep the focus on the visceral emotional and sensational signatures in the body.

Keep bringing the attention back to the direct sensations and emotions in the body. This is your life force energy or the God force within you. We have been so trained and conditioned out of trust in our own bodies communications to us that we are afraid of it! We have been trained to rely on only our conscious mind chatter which is about 5 % of our capacity as conscious beings! We believe the clap trap of the egoic mind so much. Our body is an entire system of sensory feedback information, continuously communicating with us. Are we are available to hear and feel its communication??!!

Triggers are old, repressed emotional wounds asking to be processed and integrated. That is why an emotional reaction to a current situation can seem out of proportion. The suppressed energy is trying to make itself known consciously. If the wound (inflamed suppressed emotional energy) wasn’t there you’d just feel a 'situation appropriate' amount of emotion. An appropriate boundary guide from your body, maybe a little anger or a surge in life force to assert a boundary. All our body has is emotion to guide us to what is acceptable and what is not acceptable to us :). The emotion would arise to inform you of your next step, then dissipate as its job is done :).

Emotions are not a fault, they are our bodies guidance so that we can navigate through our reality.

When our natural emotions (intuitive guidance system) have been rejected or told is wrong in any way as children, which is the case for many of us, we lose trust in our own internal guidance system, and so begins the process of 'socialisation' :).

The process of reintegrating the subconscious emotions (they don't stop being produced they just go underground in to subconscious shadow) involves firstly becoming aware of your bodily sensations again, then patiently BEING with them. They are like little lost children waiting for you to call them home in to your heart.

YOUR heart, YOUR acceptance is the one they've been waiting for! They don't need healing, fixing, improving, understanding, becoming 'more' spiritual or 'more' compassionate. They need your presence, love and full acceptance. They need to be fully FELT and SEEN. More love, more compassion within your being is merely a pleasant side effect of integration of your own suppressed (subconscious emotions).

In my opinion 'spiritual paths' can further distract us from simply being with our authentic sensations and emotions in the body, that arise naturally through living our 'ordinary' lives. Spiritual paths can Just be another 'way' of being perfect enough so that we don't have to feel what actually begs to be felt. Although spirituality can be beautiful as well.

After you’ve integrated all suppressed energy (which can take years :)) any current emotions (the body's natural guidance system) in real time, are felt and released, with no triggers. They are all completely welcome, they come and go. They are recognised as being a pure communication from the body (God). There's no longer resistance or doubt in the body.

Our emotions are guidance from God/ life, they show us our boundaries, they are produced naturally as 'natural' responses to specific stimuli, they enable us to function and navigate through life as healthy human beings. Again only when a nervous system is in overload because of so much suppression of life force does it become overreactive and inflamed, or worse still completely numb and detached. Which unfortunately is the case for most humans.

Only a fully integrated human reaches true enlightenment; God/ life force flowing freely through the human form. It isn’t at all about attaining spiritual kudos, floating above it all in a bubble of delusional emptiness, being kinder and more unconditionally loving than the average, although this is probably a natural side effect of no longer having an egoic mechanism resisting certain aspects of your expression so that you are received or perceived in a particular light. You really do just FULLY become yourself :).

Liberation is FULLY WHOLE, authentic Being, which is only accessible as all suppressed energy (from lifetimes of suppression) has been fully integrated. Only then can the body be at one or attuned to the vibration of pure life force or God.

We are good at talking ‘about’ emotions, distracting ourselves 'from' uncomfortable emotions, focusing our minds away from emotions, crying about emotions we don't want to have, we'll do anything rather than FULLY FEEL and OPEN to them. We are afraid they’ll consume us, but they won’t.

Ego is the protective mechanism with its stories and projections, a means of protecting you from discomfort and pain, the ugly truth that you feel about yourself, life and others and are afraid is true.

We need to unlearn or dissolve the avoidant, habitual coping patterns and strategies.

Peel all egoic labels and projections off and you are left with pure sensation.

We bypass when we are ashamed to feel an emotion because it doesn’t ‘fit’ with who we want to be or be seen as; our facade (mask); which really is one big coping mechanism. When a person doesn’t get what they want, when things don't go to plan, when you can't have your preferences, when people don't see you the way you want to be seen, the mask slips and you see the true colours. Be brave, face your true colours.

You have to loosen your self image (how you want to be perceived) so that you are able to allow ALL emotional signatures, and when backlog has been acknowledged, processed and integrated which trust me can take a lifetime :) all that remains is appropriate, emotional guidance in ‘real’ time. Because the emotions aren’t backed up they are no longer explosive triggers, they are rational pointers of what is relevant or irrelevant for you moment to moment....natural emotional responses (your internal compass) to life.

You need to crawl out of the hard shell of conditioned armour and loosen and soften the nervous system up so that you can flow freely again. Less rigid, less structured. That doesn’t necessarily mean be without structure, it just means be soft and open in your approach to your routine and structure and softness and openness to the emotions that get triggered when your expected structure or routine is not as you 'prefer' or 'expect' it to be.

A frantic mind is just a symptom of suppression; when it ruminates it is in reactivity to the contractions (suppressed energy) in the body. As you become aware of and soften and open to the tension and somatic sensations and emotions in the body your mind automatically settles.

In the beginning of allowing repressed emotions we are allowing them as a means of 'getting rid of them', this isn't true surrender, so they hang around :), but this happens to everyone in the initial stages because obviously we have preference of how we want to feel. True surrender is putting faith and trust in God/ lifes flow for us, that whatever is felt through the day and night is Gods prerogative and Will. I remember times of crippling depression and chronic, debilitating anxiety surrendering in bed to the point that if Gods will is that it lasts forever then that is his plan. Paradoxically with this deep surrender it passed.

We think we know how our lives should be and have hissy fits if it doesn't flow to 'our' expected plan!...none of us have a clue of how the next moment will unfold!! Humbleness replaces arrogance when you truly surrender life back to the rightful owner...God.

Suppressing and avoiding feeling authentic emotions and sensations in the body is FEAR. Opening, softening and feeling deeply ALL discomfort that arises in the body is UNCONDITIONAL LOVE. Unconditional love is coming home deeply in to the body/ will of God within us.

It is not our work to give love or spread love; only an arrogant ego in avoidance has beliefs like this and it busys itself with its 'do good' missions.  It is our work to BE LOVE i.e acknowledge, allow, integrate our own life force/ God (energy body)), however it expresses itself moment to moment. To truly love all the rejected parts of ourselves, all the darkened corridors we've avoided our whole lives, our FULL expression, that has at some point been deemed unworthy of love. This is surrender to God, then if intuition guides the body to help another...so be it!. But it will no longer be an avoidance tactic of the ego :).

This is our path home to pure alignment with God/ Natural Life force flow.

This IS my way of life to flow and embody EVERY ounce being as true and authentic as I can to my bodies signals, sensations, emotions and energetics. I've never really had a choice in this :). As a little human I was born highly sensitive, highly intuitive and deeply attuned to my emotional and others emotional landscapes. On reflection it was like living at the deepest depths of the ocean bed (what is subconscious to most) while most others around me swam on the surface (conscious); oblivious/ afraid of what was under the surface! I've lived there my whole life that is how I'm able to support others venturing in to their subconscious :).

I feel that returning home to God is really returning home to deep trust of the bodys innate intelligence to guide us moment to moment; this is where our intrinsic safety is. To then be able to swim in the depths within our own bodys intuitive guidance. This is what the socialisation process conditions out of us; trust in ourselves!! The sensations and emotional signatures in our own body are life force/ God speaking to us....but you gotta wade through the seaweed first :).

Wise ones LOVE their triggers - they are where suppressed life force energy is waiting to be liberated!!

Seek out your triggers, welcome them! these are the walls of safety/ protection constructed to keep God out!! Speak out your Truth even when your voice quivers.

Your painful emotions, all that makes you feel ashamed, or that which you find unbearable to accept and allow is your WAY home to Gods unconditional love, acceptance and safety.

It’s how you merge with God/ authentic life force flow..

How can you unconditionally love another if you have not accepted and allowed ALL parts of yourself?!

Make energetic openness in the body your default state - so when you are triggered your energy body remains open.

As children we feel emotional pain, we cry, we learn, we move on, until we are taught that some emotions are to be suppressed and avoided altogether. Even saying to a child "Aw don't be upset" obviously gives them the message that crying is not a good or wanted expression. This is not about blaming or shaming, we've ALL done it! As adults we have built so many walls around emotional signatures, everything has become so layered and complex…SIMPLY TO AVOID THE UNPLEASANT FEELINGS AND SENSATIONS IN THE BODY!!

The resistances and coping strategies (walls) to avoid discomfort that our egos have constructed to survive when we were little, lowers our vibrational frequency or life force and keeps us small and contracted in our FEARFUL (surface or conscious) realities, where we are continuously trying to control outcomes just to avoid uncomfortable feelings. It is never the 'thing' itself we are afraid of eg speaking out, going for another job, not ALWAYS saying yes, doing what we actually want to do instead of what others want, it is the emotion that we may have to FEEL if we are rejected or judged negatively. We are afraid of our own subconscious energy!!

Who’d have thought??!!...

Avoidance of facing and feeling uncomfortable feelings is the culprit of all of our dysfunctional relationships. It sullies authentic and honest expression. We fear so much the emotional feeling and sensation of rejection or negative judgement. So we live inauthentic lives and wonder why we feel unfulfilled….OUR LIFE FORCE (authenticity) ISN’T FREE TO FULLY EXPRESS ITSELF NATURALLY!!!!

If you are afraid of certain emotional signatures in your body you are afraid of life!! Life is EVERY emotion; the entire spectrum, EVERY colour. Our beautiful, amazing bodies have the capacity to FEEL EVERYTHING. It is the false ego that is afraid to allow our bodies to FEEL. It stands like an avoidant gatekeeper, spinning stories, projections, chaos and distraction.

JUST BE STILL AND FEEL :)......

It’s like bondage, it’s a dreadful way to live; trying to keep your subconscious energetic shadow under wraps, trying to appease and satiate your continual sense of fear, lack and unease.

Let your shadow free!!!! Shine light on to every darkened corridor of your psyche. Don't be afraid to FEEL....

Burst at the seams!!!

Let it shatter your inauthentic facade!!!

We ALL have an image we show to the world AND we ALL have a shadow we keep under wraps - sometimes so much so that we are unconscious of it :). By tuning in to your body it will let you know EXACTLY what it feels moment to moment.

Be aware of anyone who displays only love and light and only poos sprinkly stardust :).

God is light AND dark....and EVERYTHING in between!

So interesting as you really begin to understand that practices and methods and spiritual seeking and striving to be 'better' can be just busy work to avoid feeling shadow :)…How clever the ego is!!

Egoic self cannot stand the body feeling any discomfort or 'inappropriate' or 'inconvenient' emotions eg if someone is being rude it contracts and maybe the body says fuck off or doesn't say anything…then it creates so many stories after the incident is ancient history ‘who do they think they are?…I didn’t deserve that” ..."I should have said..." or "I'm not usually so reactive IT'S ALL THEM etc... etc…it stays in contraction... FOR FUCKEN AGES…contraction = blame, shame, guilt, rumination, trying to fix, understand, control, wish it away, trying to maintain righteousness, etc...so that the situation doesn’t arise again. So that the body doesn't have to feel rejection, unworthiness, disrespect, or that its wrong or unjustified etc..ego thinks there's a perfect formula for playing life 'right'!!

There isn't....but the more connected you are to your actual bodily sensations and energy, and the more authentic in your natural expression you are, the more fulfilled and contented you'll be as a direct result.

To live as the peace that passes all understanding is to stay open energetically through the nervous system to whatever God presents. Maintaining an awareness of the sensations in the body, especially the belly. Often asking yourself "Is my belly soft, relaxed and open or is it tight and contracted?"

If its tight and contracted - you're in fear and bracing for impact :)...Let Go and Let God....use the breath...Soften and open...Trust the flow of life :)...trust that your body will ALWAYS protect you :).

God wants us strong, fully open and living life in FULL surrender to the moment. If we don't face and allow authentic feelings and sensations we'll remain in a fearful, contracted, suffering state.

There’s been massive amounts of resistance to how the body naturally feels due to suppression, due to conditioning. This accumulated suppressed energy needs to be unravelled and allowed, completely surrendered to and we can only really do this consciously when we’ve exhausted every other means to FEELING ‘BETTER’…looked under every rock in this world, eventually we realise we can't THINK our way or 'perfect' our way .... to FEELING better, we kind of give up, then a natural surrender occurs…its like giving your body and life back to that unknowable loving force that created it; nature/ Life/ God.

That great, mysterious intelligence obviously knows more about us than our limited, conditioned ego ever could.

Let the triggers guide you home!...

Soften and open energetically...

Surrender deeply to the sensations and emotions in the body...that is ‘What is'....

As always if you need a guide text or email me - 0432 659 044 - melangelic!!@gmail.com

It is my sincerest pleasure to guide others home to the Truth or God within their own Being.