What is true liberation

True liberation and deep uncaused contentment is earned by being true and authentic moment to moment. Completely honest at least with yourself, then hopefully with others.  It comes from following the heart and the life force energy (the will of God or essence) as opposed to the conditioned fear based mind of ‘shoulds’. We believe the ‘shoulds’ of ego will keep us safe and loved.

The mind has a constructed, artificial set of beliefs and values. Life force simply flows as it flows, spontaneously. In my story it has taken years of ‘undoing’ to live freely (and this undoing is continual). It has entailed trusting life force (direct intuition) over ‘personal’ beliefs, values, logic and rationale. I no longer live by conditioned ‘shoulds’ (athough 'shoulds' continually arise:)) and life continually tests. If life force doesn’t flow to clean the kitchen before going to bed, it doesn’t happen. If life force doesn't flow to go to the gym or be sweet and polite or respond to a request from someone, it doesn't happen. There is no set way of doing life, although this is what ego tries to uphold. A way of doing life that will keep us loved, safe and happy.

There is flow; natural intuition, perfect, Divine timing, for every movement AND there is simultaneously a mental and conditioned or egoic structure of how your life ‘should’ flow in order to stay safe; it is a continual ‘opposing’ or ‘antagonistic’ force (we could call it darkness or the devil (just symbolism). God, life force is not laziness, it just no longer lives by a manufactured construct of the ‘best’, ‘right’, 'correct' or ‘proper’ way to do something. Life force really has no rules because it does not exist in duality or opposites. It doesn't exist in the manufactured world of ;right' and 'wrong'. IT IS. Life force is not a slave to conditioning or a set preconceived concept, belief or idea. On the path of enlightenment or authenticity or living in 'flow', you will face all of your own egoic judgements of self and others and of course all others judgements towards you for following intuition (God) over ego. people will think you've changed, you're crazy, selfish, weird etc...etc...Of course, they are no longer getting what they want or expect from you :), because finally you are being true to the God or Truth in you.

Don’t get me wrong I don’t live like a scruffy, ‘the rules are there are no rules’ hippie. I have a naturally conscientious flow. However everything literally feels like it gets done by God. There is effort when required but the effort is smooth and seamless because it is natural and flowing with life force not against it. Our house is literally and metaphorically in order yet there’s no specific ‘order’ of doing things. Therefore there is no heaviness around any chore because it is only done as life force flows to do it. Everything seemingly gets done in Divine timing and flow therefore there is no heaviness or dread around anything because there’s no ‘personal’ or egoic claim or responsibility. If the body wakes in the night to eat, it eats. If it wants chocolate it eats chocolate. If it wants vegetables it eats vegetables. If the body doesn’t sleep all night it doesn’t sleep. No drama or story around it. Life force naturally flows in a balanced way. It balances life out. It knows precisely how to create equilibrium in the body and in life. It is ego (conditioning) that causes dysfunction or ‘disease’. If the body wants alone time it has alone time. If it wants to socialise, it socialises. But the natural wants of the body are from life force (love) not fear of lack (ego). If a day goes by without eating, that is what is happening. If there’s a day of non stop eating, so be it. If a week is spent in bed, a week is spent in bed. If life force energy does not flow to call the children or friends or family for weeks, months, years, so be it! You are either a slave to the conditioned ego (suffering) or you flow as the will of God (liberation). It doesn’t come easy though :). You will face every opposing force in your body…every fearful emotion.

Enlightenment, liberation is not for the one without true courage or faint of heart. It takes monumental courage to oppose your conditioning (inner antagonistic force) and face its wrath and attacks. At times it feels it would be easier to die than to face it :). That is the strength of our conditioned mind, it has been forged out of our human will to stay safe and survive!

To live as God or life force is enlightenment. You no longer have a name, let alone a personal purpose or drive. You as an individual person have no kudos or relevance whatsoever. Who would have thought that that is the most beautiful and fulfilling way to exist :).

Your body can then move freely, unstifled with the will (flow) of God.

God is natural intuition. All bodies obviously have it, but most are controlled and moved by egoic conditioning, fear of judgement. This suppression of natural life force flow is what creates issues in the body.

Spiritual ego or conditioning is a phase that also acts as a protective mechanism, gives a sense of ‘purpose’, that ‘I’ am doing something ‘meaningful’, ‘righteous’ that ‘matters’. It is a mask that protects us from the truth that no human individually actually matters. When the ego has completely dissolved, personal ‘purpose’, personal raison d’être, goes along with it.

All that remains is God or life force energy. It shows up however it shows up :). This is living Soul purpose…moment to moment.

This is freedom. No attachment at all, to anything. Not very romantic hey :).

Attachments and shadow are synonymous.